I LIE TO MYSELF

from THE CHA CHA CLUB by Jane Mangini/Rick Berlin

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A personal theme. The hallucination of optimism I sometimes hide behind. The false promise of The One as infinity love. I got the idea overhearing a guy ate The Brendan Behan Pub saying 'I should have left an hour ago...' Don't we all know that feeling

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I LIE TO MYSELF

I lie
To myself

Should have left an hour ago
Shoulda checked out last year
Shoulda called r had one more drink
What is it that keeps ya here

I lie
To myself

Ya know it, dontcha
When ya go too far
When ya had too much
When ya try too hard
When love dries up
N the one ya thought
Ya couldn't live without

I lie
To myself
Why
Do i lie
To myself

Ya gut it out
Ya live on fumes
Ya fool yrself that yr baby's cool
But ya shoulda walked when ya had the chance
N not be a sucker

I lie
To myself

Look in the mirror
Look at yr face
Look at the mess
Ya made of yr life
Did ya really need
More space

Ya doubt yrself
N ya doubt yr baby
N the world has lost it's heart
N ya paint yr soul into a corner
A suicidal spark
So what d ya do
Do ya see a shrink
Do ya take whoever'll have you
N the emptiness that ya feel at night
Is like a cheap
Lie

I lie
To myself

I shoulda left an hour ago
I shoulda checked out last year
I shoulda called r had one more drink
What is it that keeps ya here

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from THE CHA CHA CLUB, released April 14, 2021
Jane: All instruments
Rick: Vox/Song

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A giant on the Boston music scene. His colorful songwriting + strong stage presence have influenced countless other artists since the early 1970s. He continues to make music w/ intelligence + integrity, building an international reputation around his knotty, singular piano playing, straight-from-the-heart singing and a style of character-based songwriting that's drawn comparisons to Waits + Cohen ... more

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